"you are allowed to love your curves, but why is it wrong for me to love my "bones"
Found that words on instagram. what crossed in your mind when you're reading it?.Have you ever been in that situation? When people are being so heartless, judging yourself about your physical appearance, talking and asking those stupid and mean questions that you can't even answer it. what even worse is, they start to laugh at you, making it as some kind of joke. For their entertainment.
And in the end of the day, you feel pathetic, ugly, horrible and hate yourself. You sit in front of the mirror with the feeling of hating you own skin. Yes, because of all the words that people say to you. Have you?
Frankly speaking, I always been in that situation. Yes, and I know it slowly killing my own self. second by second. The truth is, I don't know how to put this in word or even in one sentence. Because the feeling that I got, every time I face the situation, my body automatically allows, only my lips to smile. To give the big smile that , those people really need for being so mean. "applause to you* I remind myself not to be mean like them and I end it with a smile not with words.
Im naturally skinny and petite. Never in my memory that I starve myself or forbid myself not to eat. No, I don't starve. I eat and eat and yes I eat normally. More normal that those pretty gorgeous perfect ladies like Miranda Kerr or Nora Danish (perhaps). But still, it never grow or making any movement. not even a kg' or inch. But one thing that I realized that keep growing and moving is the people around me, especially their mouth and tongue. Like a judge in the court, they delightfully give comments and so-called-advise which made very spiteful remarks to me. Give name and call me "skinny,kurus, cekeding". Dush, thank god I still have the heart of Mahatma Gandhi, if not I am sure I'll throw some bananas into their mouth for being such ******. who knows, it can make their mouth to shut at least one minutes, kan?. ;)
Ask yourself, are you one of the judges that I mentioned earlier?. If yes, then you really need to look at the mirror and ask, "are you really that perfect"? If yes, then say Alhamdulillah, don't be a cocky. Pelik kan? How people can be so mean. especially the girls. They know how insecure a woman is. they know how important it is for a woman to feel good about themselves. Yet, they crumble the woman who's not that "so-called perfect" or if she's not in their league.
now I understand, why some human being who are not feeling good about themselves, choose suicide as the way out. Because they hate themselves, lack of confidence and feel horrible about themselves when they
SHOULDN'T! feel that way.
The question is why they feel and think like that?
Obviously Due to this particular group that they call themselves as human, who like to look down on someone, who like to critic about others like a judge in the cheap singing competition, who like to "label" people, who feel that they are the greatest, who like to point out others' flaw. Yes, now I'm putting the blame on this particular group. They should take responsibility for their "free-judging".
End of rant, please be more careful in your words. And stop labeling people or give names that she/he hates. Please!, we are not equal, yet we are equally living in one planet. So please behave your mouth. If you can feel beautiful for being big, let me feel beautiful for being small too :'). is it wrong for me to love my "bones"?
p/s: why is it okay to call me skinny, kurus, cekeding, anorexic, but horrible for a person to call you fat? Why, skinny people has no heart meh?
words from a wee. Yes, i know she's small
(1.13 am.)
I wanna feel good about myself too. I believe Allah has created us beautifully. Dont be so mean.
